Preparing for our last 2013 project “A Feast For My People”was bitter sweet. It was during the rush and height of Christmas with everyone rushing to shop for their loved ones, or getting ready to leave town to visit their loved ones, or those trying to snag those last bit of bargains out there. And it made me feel on the one hand intrusive to ask people to stop focusing on themselves to help me to help others to be happy, but on the other hand it made me feel like the appointed one to ask others to stop focusing on themselves to help me to help others to be happy at a time when they are particularly unhappy and have very little to celebrate about.
We didn’t have the money in our budget to pull this project off, and we didn’t have it in our personal bank accounts to cover everything either. So we reached out to businesses but they didn’t respond right away. I was afraid of what kind of responses I would get, that I would be rejected, and turned away, and be left alone in my quest. I got so nervous, I turned to Hershey, chocolate that is, and ate several of those delicious chocolate kisses with almonds. And then I had a talk with the lord. I put all of my fears, worries, uncertainties into his hands and walked away. I didn’t even look back. I knew he was going to take care of everything, why?  Because he has brought me through so many things this year alone that I just can’t begin to tell you about that is mind-blowing, and GOD knew he had my heart in this. He knew my motives for this project came straight from my heart.
All I cared about was making others with nothing have something nice for Christmas. That was my gift for Christmas. And GOD gave it to me. The businesses responded and gave to us, the people called, emailed, brought toys and food, and the event was a wonderful success.
I was listening to the radio this morning and the lyrics to this song which pretty much spell out how I feel about this entire year and all the work that Save Us Now Inc., has done, and how the lord has been in the mix.
I just looked up today
And realized how far away I am from where You are
You gave me life worth dying for
But between the altar and the door
I bought the lies that promised more
And here I go again
Lord, I know I let You down
But somehow, I will make You proud
I’ll turn this sinking ship around
And make it back to You
But all my deeds and my good name
Are just dirty rags that tear and strain
To cover all my guilty stains
That You already washed away
(‘Cause) All You’ve ever wanted, all You’ve ever wanted
All You’ve ever wanted was my heart
Freedom’s arms are open, my chains have all been broken
Relentless love has called me from the start
And all You wanted was my heart
I was chasing healing when I’d been made well
I was fighting battles when You conquered hell
Living free but from a prison cell
Lord, I lay it down today
So I’ll stop living off of how I feel
And start standing on Your truth revealed
Jesus is my strength, my shield
And He will never fail me
No more chains, I’ve been set free
No more fighting battles You’ve won for me
Now in Christ, I stand complete
Written by: Mark Hall, Bernie Herms & recorded by: Casting Crowns